Suggested by Shaker KitSileya: "What was a regular habit (e.g. biting nails; humming) which you never thought you'd stop, but then one day you realized you had stopped without trying?"
So, when I was in middle school, I developed this strange habit of running my lower front teeth over the inside of my upper top lip, over and over, until it was dry. I don't know why I started doing it, but it quickly became compulsive.
It was a physically unpleasant feeling, and it also very obvious when I did it, contorting my mouth into a strange shape, so it was embarrassing for me as well as unenjoyable.
I have a very clear memory of sitting in my 7th grade science class, and doing this weird thing, and wishing desperately that I could stop but feeling like I couldn't.
And then, one day about a year later, I realized that I'd stopped doing it. Just as inexplicably as I'd started.
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